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Date: Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Time: 5:31 AM
cant get over it

the more i look at my friends being in vjchoir, and 2 of my juniors who joined them for carolling at genting, i feel very sad. i wish to be with them once more.
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Date: Sunday, November 22, 2009
Time: 5:42 AM
clothes!

i wanna get some long sleeves, with a little buttons right at the middle. :D
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Time: 3:57 AM
the time has passed and we should move on, yet...

promos results are out, promotional status is also out.

sad to say, some predicted ones came true, some we hoped wouldnt be true came true. what can we do? accept the fact? face it? or retaliate all the way?

well, we are responsible in paving our ways and the final decisions will be decided upon what we have sowed. yet at times, things turned out to what we did not expect and our worlds turned upside down. is it our fault? at times, yes.

so let's choose the easier path, the easier way. why suffer by choosing the tougher way? we only end up in misery and pain. its always wiser to be more optimistic and of course, logical. choosing a path is for ourselves, we have to think of the pros and cons. put aside our character, put aside whatever feelings and such, it's difficult, yes, but come to think of it, isn't it better to choose the preferred way for the better of our lives?

well, i cant say much as many do not share my thoughts. it's difficult influencing them though. haiz i dont know how to continue this blog post. i shall stop here for now.
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Date: Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Time: 7:51 AM
the same old feeling


maybe what soon said was right. it's not me you know. i used to think that it's me and tried to make things right but now it doesnt seem that way.

im like a person not stuck in the middle, im the person standing outside.
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Date: Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Time: 6:29 AM
words that are difficult to say

somehow i dont like talking that topic with you but i ad to if hnot i really dont know what to do. my impression: you dont like it.

how to change this? is it adaptation or attitude? is it jaded? i know that the main thing about this is unity problem. who wants to go if there isn't the mood, the right attitude and the right mindset? but sometimes, impression has created the attitude and mindset thus it is hard to change. if anyone happens to see this, can you please tell me how to strengthen unity? how to make a team, a group of people say 20, united and willing to come together to make the team a successful one?

tell me how.
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Date: Saturday, November 7, 2009
Time: 10:35 PM
seen the light


i was on the verge of giving up on this choir because of whatever that has happened in this whole year. the treatment, the feel, everything wasnt in place. as a choralist, i shouldnt even think of giving up singing yet at that moment, when everything boils down to me, it's just so hard to get everything back in place. dont they realize the degree of harm, the extent that they had caused to people in the choir? what they have done has made many dislike and despise choir. then, dont they ever reflect?

chuinchi was a nice friend to stop me from giving up, her passion is still there while im still searching for my lost one. honestly, i've lost everything. from support to voice. and i took up something that i shouldnt. decisions are mainly regrets. how solemn.

i need someone to train me back from the start, someone to show me the way, someone to enlighten me, how to make choir a better place. i saw my bro's videos of MJchoir. how loving they were, that's what i called a family. it's the same for tkchoir. tkchoir - one choir, one family, one voice.

see the light yet?
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Date: Monday, November 2, 2009
Time: 7:12 AM
holidays

most of them will be going on a holiday right? geng may be going, annie is going. soon? not sure. quekky? not sure.

well i am going for OBS :D although it's going to be a short one, im still satisfied since my holidays is so short. i can spend my time doing other stuff.

if geng is not free, i can find others.

i've got a concert to attend anyway, 13th dec right? and 30th dec/nov i cant remember. im definitely looking forward to the 30th nov/dec's concert because vocal consort, victorale chorale and victoria junior college will all be performing! hahhaa my favourite choirs. sad to say, whenever i think of them, the only word that comes to my mind is regrets. it's okay, look forward, look ahead.

if not i can find jiee :D or wenxin! or bhai! haha miss them loads. i just hope that this upcoming holiday will be well spent.

darling, if you are seeing this, you should know okay.
i love you a lot :D
and if you are going overseas, you know what to do :D HAHAH loves! xoxo
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