going home

Date: Saturday, May 22, 2010
Time: 7:45 AM

turning back

in this world, there's this thing called 'no turning back'.

however, i wish i could. i wanna make more girlfriends, so i canh ang out with them, shop and gossip and stuff. i cant help but just have more guyfriends than girlfriends. even the environment where im studying at, it usually ends up with more guys than girls or i just cant sync with the girls there. how saddening.

life has been tough, things are ending soon. my mind is much, or less, focused on what i wanna do now-study and score for SA2. i really cant stand the way my friend, of more than 1 year, seem to be looking down upon me due to my inability to grasp things faster. to think i have been of some help a year ago, although it didnt work out. at least i've tried but there wasnt gratitude shown.

i wish to go shopping with annie and duck and probably huiwen. even sitting down and have dinner would be good. i wanna buy many many things

i saw this set of earrings from diva, 5 pairs in total, and it costs $13. my brother said he could make for me but that would be like ??????? years later. sighs. honestly i do miss hanging out with you guys. these words are tough to speak out in my other blog as i dont wish others to look what's going on in my heart. im a shy girl honestly. i may look big and scary but no, im small and weak inside, shy too. im afraid of many things and i have to gather a lot more than others to overcome my fears. it's tough, really.

my eyebags are horrible.

i really dont know what's the next step to my life. i wish it would be good and i believe that things would be better when i go to the university.

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Date: Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Time: 7:22 AM

when you speak, think first

some people just dont know how to appreciate their existence. some just abuse it. i believe that they'll get their just desserts, but the extent of it depends.

and some people are just good at blaming others but themselves! yes, u've told us to ask our friends to go buy food for us but you didnt tell us when we are able to leave and moreover, night study is essential for us! what's wrong with you?

i cannot stand her anymore but i'll accept it, i promise. i'll take it in, no matter how horrible it is. i'll just swallow whole. i'll see how it turns out but i cant bear to watch honestly. things have gone way toooooooooooooooooo far horrible.

im glad im leaving soon.

next up, my studies. i still cannot get my motivation. i think blogshops are distracting, and probably i'll just reduce my shopping probably to buying 1 more dress? or top? heh, im sorry baby.

i need shoes, more of flats, because mine were all soaked in the rain and they are all officially spoilt. how awful. my parents always say to get more expensive footwear but i couldnt bear to buy that expensive on a pair of shoes! it's just me, again.

i promise i will study hard. GET IMPROVED RESULTS FOR SA2, like dearie said,

It's not your words that define what you are, it's your actions. Prove to others that you are able to score, dont let them look down on you. HAVE FAITH IN YOURSELF!

i find this so true. i'll work hard dearie, you too (:

it's time i pass you your present dearie :D

i love you all~

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Date: Sunday, May 2, 2010
Time: 7:42 AM

desperate measures call for desperate screams out loud

I WANT MORE CLOTHESSSSSSS! and i hope to shed some weight cause i've been eating a little too much recently. URGGGGGHHHHHHH!

and i want a camera. oh gosh.

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