i really dont know why i feel agitated easily. and i've realized, i'm much more of emotional these few days, in the sense, listening to emo songs. influence? or just a gut feeling to become emo?

the vast skies that spread to the horizon ahead, they just spread to wherever they want to spread to, wherever they wanna reach. things arent that simple, they arent that straightforward. looking at them, they mention this and that, do you ever wonder, why they make such comments?

do you ever wonder why the sky is called 'sky'?

do you ever wonder why a bottle is called 'bottle'?

or even wonder why prehistory turns out to be our modern times, the 21st century at this point of time?

do things even process through the thing in our heads called brains? why is it called a brain anyway? what's a mind? head isnt mind, is it?

i really dont understand life.

the adults, they have their own way of thinking. they love to argue over trivial matters, maybe not love to, like to. and why is it a habit that the head of the family has the right to order people around in te family? it's like, we are all human beings, we are all of equal status, just of different age. then they'll say, "my parents did that to me before, so it's gonna be the same for you." like, what's the link? first, it's not heredity, it's not some logic of 'monkey see, monkey do'. things change, a lot. olden days' thinking is totally out in this modern period of life. even music, muisc changes with time. from baroque to classical, romantic and lastly, to date, the modern period.

maybe it's just that life is boring, life is worthless. no, maybe life isnt worthless. cause twilight's there to save me. edward, explicit example, yet one of a kind or rather, none exists on Earth.

i wont die yet anyway, mooozey is there for me since young, so is whiskey. they listen to me and make no comments, yea, if they were to make any comments, i'd freak out too. i know what u all are thinking. what are they? plush toys, soft toys. plushies that i've received from young and are still in good condition. i cant bear to throw them away. it's a replacement for a real life doggy, i think. since dogs are my favourite animal.

listen to fall for you -second serenade, it's totally awesome. dont tear.

dont use that tone,
it's like forcing me.
im not your possession.
go do some reflections, please.