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tuesdaynight
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Date: Sunday, June 7, 2009
Time: 7:20 AM
yet

god knows what i've written for my previous half written post, i cant find it now. -.-

all i know is that it hurts inside. those words are like arrows shooting through me, knives stabbing relentlessly. i know it's me, im the one at fault. im not ready at any point now. i fear. maybe it's just me watching too many romance movies and dramas so i've seen the good side and bad side of relationships.

i fear losing you, i admit. i've thought of days to spend with you and opportunities to be with you. nevertheless, not neglecting the rest around us. there's that longing, im sure u know how it feels. with you, i feel warm, because you are warm-blooded and that's a fact. but it really feels good when you are around, it seems easy to tell you everything, yet at this point, some part in me doesnt agree.

meeting up with you on saturday was pleasing and i was really happy you could make time to come out. although i know there were consequences and the length of time of meeting was restricted, i was still satisfied for that short moment ----- just to see you, to hear your voice, to sit with you and simply smile. i know that i mean more to you than you mean more to me.

call me sensitive and all, it's just me. i take things harsh, i take things light. it all depends on myself. you are just there, and you can be gone with the wind in a split second. i worry your bill will burst whenever we sms too much but i wanna know that you are still here, on earth. sometimes, i dont feel your presence, it's not there. that's when my heart will squeeze itself and im comforted by moozey most of the times. only when your presence can be felt once again, my heart will open and blossom as my mood turns from upset to cheerful.

i dont regret being with you. i've fulfilled what you've wished for since last year june/july and you have given me the opportunity of realizing who you are inside. honestly, i had doubts when we first started. but u kept me assured and u gave me what i thought i'd never get. people have been telling me, you are not what u are on the outside. you are more than what's outside.

i think i've said enough for today.
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