going home

Date: Saturday, July 11, 2009
Time: 8:13 AM

it's really fails

whatever you say, i thought u didnt mind that i did very badly for my SAs. but think about it, there's so much to cope and so much happening. moving of house, choir, studies, what more?

i thought when u said "just try your best", u knew that i was facing difficulties coping with my studies and everything else. in the end, u were just trying to say that i didnt put in enough effort, i didnt make full use of my time to study.

that amount of time i spent on doing annie's present, u said i was playing around, i didnt concentrate on my studies. asking my brother whether i had the time is definitely an obvious answer. duh it's a "you have so much time to study but it's your fault that you dont make full use of it and you kept playing computer games".

i've already stopped playing maple for such a long time. it has been so long since i've played a proper game but yet, you still blame me. he played sooo many games but you praised him cause he was able to provide you with results and i couldnt.

whatever the reson is, you just dont want me to get an ipod. you think that my friends are all out to harm me, to pull me down, to prevent me from scoring good grades. you think that im a 10-year-old kid? you think i dont know who is good to me and who isnt? let me tell you, i know very well who treats me well and who doesnt.

i cant take it anymore, it's just always like that. whatever i do, it's wrong. even if i get good results, they are not as good as his. i must, i have to score 100 to be on par. what can i do then you'll be equal and fair? you said you are being fair, but in fact you are not. you must go and reflect, honestly.

tell me what to do.

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