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Date: Sunday, January 3, 2010
Time: 12:34 AM
the past thoughts; naive

i was just reading through the first few posts of this blog and i realised, how naive and immature i was.

it was mainly complaining about my home, how bad, how dreadful it seemed. but now, it's different. i yearned to come home almost everyday now, must be the holidays i guess? however, it's true. maybe it's because for the past weeks, i havent been home and i felt guilty. guilty towards my mom mainly, for leaving her at home alone most of the time. to leave her eating her meals by herself. how dreadful that feeling is, with no one as accompaniment.

i promise, i promise to stay by my family for life and death. it's my honour.

then, and now.

i remembered my grandparents, especially my paternal grandmother. it's such a nice warm feeling to have them by your side, to dine with them. i dont get that chance anymore. sometimes i ask myself why they had to go so early, so fast. i didnt never got the chance to tell them i got into a secondary school or a junior college. i never got the chance to tell them, im attached and we are still together up to this moment. i never got the chance to have a proper family reunion where all my relatives gather and we have dinner at the back where the big big table was out in the open and the soup's gone in a split moment. her typical actions, her typical words. she'll always carry the youngest and let her sit on her lap while the rest play catching or hide-and-seek. but what can i say and see now?
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